narratives

And so I have been feeling a little heavy lately. The conversations that I hold on a daily, really challenge how I think as new perspectives are offered. With everything that I am learning, I have been working to be vulnerable and not push back with intuitive rebellion. This rebellion stems from the lack of Black people and figures represented throughout the arts studied in my courses. Here and there, due to newly implemented programs and lots of push back, a figure or artist may be acknowledged and yet, it is not enough for me.

This snippet of Kerry James Marshall, I am grateful for because it centered my thoughts: although I can acknowledge the greatness being presented (should I subjectively deem it to be great), I can still recognize that I myself do not feel represented. In that, I have the capacity and ability to create my own narratives in worlds that exist in my realm creatively. It can be difficult for me, because I have to consistently remind myself to not consider the White gaze and redirect my thoughts to what I feel should exist but also my goals while doing so.